Yeah , another day .. Thursday, October 6 ..I am almost speachless..
It hurts when the one you love doesn't believe you , says ugly things to you ...
Worst feeling ever : your boyfriend talking to your best friend ; it's not a big deal if you know about this ..
but if you don't know .. and you find out accidentally , it hurts .. very much ..
you feel like you're drowning in a world you don't know surrounded by unknown..
for God's sake... it's your boyfriend [ the one you really care about and the one you love ] and you best friend ..
how do you feel when those 2 persons you're interested in [ and you know them quite well] are "talking behind your back" ?
i don't want that feeling anymore. I'm better without knowing those things . It's healthier for me to not know some things . i don't want to think about the things you 2 might talk about ..
i don't want to imagine you 2 going out WITHOUT me .
i am hurt and sad . very hurt .
but i still love you like a fool
