cuz beautiful memories can't be undone

You cant understand how hard it is to say no when he asks for you back. Unless you’ve been in love before, you have no idea at all how hard it is, no matter how much he has fucked you over, hurt you or messed you up. When you in love you will look past every single bad thing in him , you will do anything to have him back in your life, and no matter how strong you think you are, and how you tell everyone you would never let someone back into your life who has treated you like shit, love changes everything. Love makes you weak and vulnerable, it changes what you believe in , how you act, everything  .and no matter what he has done, you would still do anything for him. So don’t you dare judge someone for going back to him because if you have never loved before, you really just don’t understand .

bulshit

I make mistakes. I have regrets. I hate being alone.
I'm always late. I hate school. I never call anyone back.
I don't like being wrong. I'm a huge procrastinator.
I act like I'm a lot tougher than I am. I hate being ignored.
I cry. I'm shy. I get annoyed by people too easily. I have enemies.
I can't sing. I have horrible balance. I laugh really obnoxiously.
I can't trust anyone with my life. Many things just seem to get to me.
 I'm not perfect. But the beauty of it all is that I don't care.

Put a smile on my face, its just another day.
Rehearse my "I'm fine", its just another lie.
Paint the perfect picture, they all think they want to be me. If only they knew...


Just because I am younger, more immature, miss being a kid, likes to dance around in the rain,
 squeals like a girl, has never been in a relationship, still believes that 99.99% of the world is good,
can’t eat without making a mess, bruises easily, cries a lot, throw tantrums, can’t hold a grudge, forgives to much,
doesn’t think about it before I open my mouth, haven’t got my heart broken to bits, never lost anyone close, or ever fell in love
does not mean that I am any less than you or that I’m just a young naïve girl. I know more than you think so don’t underestimate me.

You talk like that to every single girl. I was so stupid, why
 did I think I was anything special to you? Obviously I wasn’t but
I can’t believe I wasted my precious time on you. I wish I could have realized earlier.

xo.

Lies.

Lie 1: There is only the present and nothing to remember.
Lie 2: Time is a straight line.
Lie 3: The difference between the past and the futures is that one has happened while the other has not.
Lie 4: We can only be in one place at a time.
Lie 5: Any proposition that contains the word 'finite' (the world, the universe, experience, ourselves...)
Lie 6: Reality as something which can be agreed upon.
Lie 7: Reality is truth. 
Lie 8: I don't miss you & I don't love you.