i still love you. i don't know how to forget you and i don't want that.
i want to love until i grow old and if i will be asked " do you still love your first true love?"
i could answer proudly "yes ,and i will love him until the end of my days". it sounds tragic, dramatic - it sound stupid maybe. but that's the truth : i love you and i will never forget you.
now you are with another girl ..it's my fault . if i would've listen to you and in the first place i wouldn't have lied you, you'd have been ma boy .
for me.. you're still my love, my little love .. you're still the reason of my happiness . even if you don't believe me when i tell you something.
Wednesday it's your bday .. you'll have 23 . i' m truly sorry that i'm not there, next to you .. i miss you being happy with me . i miss you being right next to me . i miss waking up and thinking "oww shit, i look like hell and i'm with him.how can i hide my 'morning - freaking-face ' ?"
i know again and again : words don't matter ; actions do. i don't blame you for not believing me .
at least , i'm relieved that you won't read this . you have no interest on reading my 'blog' that's now turned in a kind of diary .
it helps me writing down this bullshit.
50 % of me hopes that you're happy with your girlfriend , 50% of me hopes that you miss me and you wonder stuff about me .
i know, it's childish and i am stupid.
P.S. : i can't stop myself remembering 'you' that : i love you .
